BITTER TRUTH

 

My past is haunting me,

my regrets I'll never forget.

I lost my best friend,

the nicest person I ever met.

I've prayed day and night,

and asked others to pray for me too.

Why won't God help me?

I have no clue.

His silence is deafening,

and my efforts are done in vain.

I felt so helpless,

when I saw CJ in pain.

Her family deserted her,

and she had no friends.

I watched all this enfold,

and saw her life end.

God blessed CJ & I,

with six great years.

But when she died,

our future disappeared.

My prayers are left unanswered,

and here I am alone.

I know she is in heaven,

where it's home sweet home.

CAREGIVER

 

Always comfort them, when they are in pain.

Even when you listen, it's never done in vain.

Go spend sometime, when they are alone.

If you can't visit, call them on the phone.

Listen to their stories, it means so much to them.

Even if they repeat it, they are all a gem.

A much needed hug or you wipe a tear.

You let them know, you'll always be there.

Don't forget to say the words, I LOVE YOU!

Make sure they know, they are special too.

You can do so much, when you add a smile.

Love knows no boundaries, it's all worthwhile.

Maintain your composure, always participate.

Always look for ways to make them feel great.

Repeat what you say, if they have a hard time to hear.

You can make then comfortable when you are near.

You can stay positive when something goes wrong.

Use this very moment to play their favorite song.

All the caregiving duties, one word to think of.

Any thing you say or do, do it with LOVE!

Precious Memories

 

I take a moment etched in time.

When I met you, you were mine.

From our lonesome days it was God's plan.

For a lovely woman meet this lonely man.

I take a moment and I can also see.

All those precious memories of you and me.

I can see our love how much it's grown.

We lived in a place we called our home.

I take a moment and look back again.

When I heard you say, you're my best friend.

Six great years, nothing like this before.

And it all began with a knock on my door.

A CRY FOR HELP

 

I have no purpose, I have no plan.

I lost my friend that's when this began.

No sign of relief, no ray of hope.

I carry a heavy burden, it's hard to cope.

I'm lost and lonely and I'm still hurting.

I feel so helpless, that I am certain.

So many regrets, many tears I cried.

Faced with no future, I am terrified.

I cannot deny it, I cannot lie.

I cannot ignore it, my desire to die.

I am so scared, my life will soon end.

I have no choice, I have no friend.

CUTE LITTLE DITTY

 I met a lady who looks very pretty.

I found her funny and downright witty.

Those blue eyes and smile are so appealing.

My heart can't stop this great feeling.

Just the way she talks, its music to my ears.

I finally meet the one, after all those years.

I don't make a fuss and just play it cool.

I'll take it slowly, don't want to be a fool.

The moment our eyes meet, the time is right.

Both of us were lonely, but we've got tonight.

She takes my hand, we go for a walk.

I'm a little bit shy but I start to talk.

Next thing I know, she asked me for a date.

My answer is yes, I can hardly wait.

It's dining for two, candle lit dinner.

I know she's mine, the moment I met her.

DO EVERYTHING WITH LOVE

 

I am a complete mess!

I feel like trash much less.

I wonder what I can do.

When I'm hurting too.

Where do I go from here?

How do I stop this fear?

I fell and got back up again.

But I have no best friend.

With no purpose and no car.

I can't see how I got this far.

There's no reason to look back.

But I can see clearly what I lack.

If I knew back then, what I know now.

I can do more, so I make this vow.

I focus on Jesus and always think of.

Everything I do, I do with LOVE!

LORD, IS IT TIME?

 

I have no purpose, not even a plan.

No dream or vision for this lonely man.

The evil one comes, it torments me every day.

I'm overwhelmed by grief, no help is on the way.

LORD IS IT TIME,

 TO CALL ME HOME.

IN HEAVEN WITH YOU, 

WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.

WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST,

 NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.

IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER, 

LORD IS IT TIME?

Darkness surrounds me, silence fills my ears.

Misery clouds over me, my eyes are filled with tears.

Lost my dear friend, it breaks my heart.

Loneliness consumes me, it tears me apart.

LORD IS IT TIME, 

TO CALL ME HOME.

IN HEAVEN WITH YOU,

 WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.

WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST,

 NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.

IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER, 

LORD IS IT TIME?

False accusations keep me in constant fear.

My pillow covers my face, not my own tears.

Phone seldom rings, no knock on my door.

I can't find a reason to live any more.

LORD, IS IT TIME, 

TO CALL ME HOME.

IN HEAVEN WITH YOU, 

WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.

WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST, 

NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.

IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER,

 LORD IS IT TIME?

I hate this world with the filth and mess.

I can't stop this anxiety or even my stress.

I begin to wonder how long will this curse last.

I can't forgive myself what happened in the past.

LORD IS IT TIME, 

TO CALL ME HOME.

IN HEAVEN WITH YOU, 

WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.

WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST, 

NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.

IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER, 

LORD IS IT TIME?

Video Tribute of HP & CJ

 

Someday when we are in heaven,

we cross paths again.

I'll be able to say to you,

Thanks for being my friend.

I MISS YOU

 

Tears flow down my face,

when I write this poem to you.

My heart longs for your presence,

my eyes misses your smile too.

Your words play over and over,

when your image appears again.

My ears listen to your voice,

when you say I was your friend.

Our days went to months,

and lasted for six years.

Now the joys and laughter's are gone,

and I'm left with only tears.

No more Bless Your Heart,

and no more I Love You.

No more prayers before a meal,

no more dining for two.

Your Polish poet misses you,

my life will never be the same,

I'll never forget about you,

nor the day you came.

I can never say goodbye,

and let our memories fade away.

I look back at those times  

and wish you were here today .

 

WHAT IF ?

 

I'm walking into darkness

 that seems to have no end.

Always looking back

 and wonder what might have been.

If God chose another way,

 to help me and help CJ.

To heal and bless us both

 instead of anguish and pain.

I'm living my days alone,

 in my time of despair.

Always looking back,

 when no one did care.

When God allowed calamity

 that effected each other.

If God chose another way

 that would keep us together.

I'm filled with lots of emotion

 that plaque me in my journey.

Always looking back

 to all the people who hurt me.

Why God allowed this cruelty

 to ruin everything in my life.

If God chose another way

 to bring peace and not strife.

I'm in a helpless state,

 isolated from any hope.

Without any friends around

 and it's hard to cope. 

Why God allowed this to happen

 that led to a tragedy.

If God chose another way,

 to bring joy instead of agony.

I'm waiting for the day

 when God calls me home.

Away from this hateful world

 and where I'm not alone.

Where love always prevail

 and we are in harmony.

When Jesus will finally appear

 and we are all a family.