Thursday, April 22, 2021

CAROLYN JOYNER


 

I call her an angel, the first day we met.

She changed my life, a moment I won't forget.

Her precious smile that lights the way.

She brightens my life each and every day.

I call her my friend, who made my life better.

I treasured every moment that we were together.

When I'm with her, it's where we belong.

Every time I saw her, our bond grew strong.

I call her sweetheart, she showed her compassion.

She made me feel special on every occasion.    

She's an amazing lady who touched my heart.

How happy she made me right from the start. 

Our six years together ended when she passed away.

That joy we had is gone and it left me astray.

I'm left with a pool of tears and I'm here all alone.

But through my grief I know, that God took you home.




Monday, April 19, 2021

Pauper's Grave

 


Don't bother with this body,

I'm no longer here.

It belongs in a pauper's grave,

my instructions are clear.

Please don't call anyone,

even if they are next of kin.

If they came when I was alive,

I would gladly invite them in.

I received no assistance,

from my family or friends.

No reason to help me now,

for my life came to an end.

There is no need for a funeral,

and no tears to shed.

No need for an obituary,

to say I'm dead.

Now you know my message,

so don't be sad.

God has called me home,

you should be glad.



Saturday, April 17, 2021

Another Moment Of Truth

 


Everyone needs help, that's nothing new.

The real question is, who will help you?

You could find an answer by reading a self-help book.

Or find a religion, they'll tell you where to look.

Someone will tell you, money will make you happy.

While others will say, go get yourself a puppy.

You could make a wish and your problem will go away.

While others will preach read your horoscope today.

You could close your eyes and think it will disappear.

You look into astrology and think the answer is there.

You could certainly pretend your problem is gone.

Or use illegal drugs, no matter if it's right or wrong.

You can find someone who claims they can save you.

You could say you don't need help and believe it's true.

There is only one answer in this moment of truth.

His name is JESUS who can help you through.

Wednesday, April 14, 2021

After The Promise

 


The bible has promises more than I could memorize.

But that assurance diminished right before my eyes.

My life with CJ was like a fairy tale.

But calamity appeared that myth soon failed.

I saw her suffer and scream in agony.

Then hardship followed caused by her family.

The affliction soon followed what seemed like a curse.

Our hope was crushed, it seemed to get worse.

You made a choice that really affected me.

You allowed the evil turn our life into tragedy.

With a broken home and even broken hearts.

I saw all the malice and people torn apart.

Loved ones are gone without saying goodbye.

Tears keep flowing and watch someone die.

I had this dream we would have a happy ending.

But soon that faded when I saw her dying.

My smile is gone and no more laughter.

I still keep praying for the hereafter.

Dazed and tattered left me with more than fear.

It left me this question, what am I doing here?



Sunday, April 11, 2021

SOMETHING SPECIAL

 


The day we first met, I knew you were the one.

The very moment our friendship had begun.

There was no looking back to our lonely days.

We had something special in so many ways.

With countless visits and calls on the phone.

Even a romantic dinner when we're at home.

We had something great, it's hard to describe.

It surely was incredible that nobody could deny.

We were blessed when God brought us together.

Our bond grew stronger and love for one another.

We enjoyed those times even for a daily routine.

For the two of us, it was our favorite scene.

We started off looking for companionship.

And we built it on a strong relationship.

We were filled with love and admiration.

We had the best times on every occasion.


 

Thursday, April 8, 2021

Two Lonely People

 


We were two good people living in a fairy tale.

We enjoyed each other's company and our love set sail.

We were two lonely people headed down the wrong way.

But we found each other and enjoyed this very day.

We were two nice people who deserved better than this.

Not the pain and agony, it's something we won't miss.

We were two friendly people that loved one another.

Her own family deserted her but we still had each other.

We were two hurting people in an unexpected journey.

We encountered hatred in front of bad company.

We were two loving people that are back on trail.

We encountered ridicule but our love did prevail.



Monday, April 5, 2021

CJ

 


My heart aches every time I see.

The empty chair near the TV.

This sweet lady suddenly passed away.

Part of me died and I'm left astray.

I miss CJ, she was my best friend.

We had great times till the end.

I know God will call me home too.

Till we meet again, I LOVE YOU!



Friday, April 2, 2021

Battle For My Soul

 


I got worries and fears I play it in my head.

I let it built up when I should seek God instead.

When problems trouble me, I clam up inside.

I do what Adam and Eve did, I went to hide.

I'M BEGGING AND PLEADING FOR GOD TO ANSWER ME.

TO OPEN UP HEAVEN GATES SO I CAN SEE.

THAT THE FUTURE I LOOK FOR IS COMING SOON.

TO KEEP MY FAITH ON JESUS AND KEEP ME ATTUNE. 

I'm walking back and forth, face my problems alone.

There is no way I can do this, not even on my own.

My own spirit is shaking and my soul is lost.

My fragile and broken body is hurting the most.

I'M BEGGING AND PLEADING FOR GOD TO ANSWER ME.

TO OPEN UP HEAVEN GATES SO I CAN SEE.

THAT THE FUTURE I LOOK FOR IS COMING SOON.

TO KEEP MY FAITH ON JESUS AND KEEP ME ATTUNE.

The world around me tells me to do it myself.

Disregard everyone around except one self.

That is a crazy logic that certainly would blind me.

But I turn my attention to one who holds my destiny.

I'M BEGGING AND PLEADING FOR GOD TO ANSWER ME.

TO OPEN UP HEAVEN GATES SO I CAN SEE.

THAT THE FUTURE I LOOK FOR IS COMING SOON.

TO KEEP MY FAITH ON JESUS AND KEEP ME ATTUNE.






Sunday, March 28, 2021

MY OWN DEMISE

 


I've reached rock bottom and face a dead end.
I've been wandering around since I lost my friend.
I lived a life that put me to shame.
There's no excuse, I have myself to blame.
I can't forgive myself, I'm sorry to say.
I've made many mistakes along the way.
I was so blind that I failed to see.
What I valued the most was for me.
My own true self was put on display.
It was my actions that caused my own dismay.
There's a part of me that causes me stress.
It's hard to go further because of the mess.
I can't trust myself because of my past.
I'm down and out, I feel like an outcast.
With nowhere to go, no one to see.
No one to call, it looks bad for me.
I'm lost and lonely since I've been on my own.
Where do I go, in the world of unknown.
I got to stay focused based on God's word.
My only chance is to follow my Savior Lord.



GOD WONDERFULLY MADE YOU

 


You're no longer fragile, God wonderfully made you.

You're no longer in agony, you have a new body too.

You're no longer in torment, but happy more than ever.

You're no longer disabled, you soar like an eagle forever.

You're no longer stressed, you live in perfect harmony.

You're no longer lonely, angels keep you company.

You're no longer a widow, you have a new family.

You're no longer weak, God made you wonderfully.



Friday, March 26, 2021

EVERYBODY

 


I am nobody who wants to be somebody

to help anybody so everybody will join

to help the next nobody.

Then nobody joins somebody who invites

anybody and they all become everybody

to work together and help nobody.

In the end there is always somebody

who is friends with anybody and they

belong to a group called everybody.

And nobody is never excluded.



Wednesday, March 24, 2021

Journey to Remember

 


We started on a journey, directed by God himself.

Who took us on a path, we couldn't do ourselves.

It brought us joy and abundance of love.

Together with lots of care, thanks to God above.

We continued our journey with some bumpy roads.

Still guided by God that led us to a crossroad.

Unfortunately pain and agony came along our ride.

God was not a spectator, he still did provide.

Our journey continued with moments hard to explain.

With more afflictions, but God's presence still remain.

He never left us, though sometimes we felt alone.

He was still present, we were not on our own.

Our journey was not forever, it had an end.

But thanks to God, we were best friends.

I still think of her, she's etched in my heart.

Those memories I hold, it will never part.




 


Monday, March 22, 2021

DEAR CJ

 


We had something special, that even the angels knew.

They always looked down, and saw me with you.

Praying together was great, and give thanks to God too.

Every time I came home, I couldn't wait to see you.

You set up my own bed, and made me feel at home.

You always welcomed me, when I saw you in your room.

Six years doesn't seem long, but the memories sure do.

All the laughter's and the chats, and cooking we did too.

Bless your heart you said, and even I love you dear.

Those words are special, they're music to my ears.

When we are together, our days got better.

With moments we share, and help one another.

Despite all the pain, you had to go through.

You found a way, to always help me too.

With God as my witness, I promise to do.

I will help someone else, in honor of you.

With tears in my eyes, and a grieving heart inside.

The memories will remain, till the day I die.

And someday soon, I will see you again.

When heaven gates open, and God invites me in.




Thursday, March 18, 2021

TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE

 


How can I go on without a friend?

Jesus always chose two to send.

Jesus said it's better two than one.

More things you can get done.

One can pick up the other.

With two, you love one another.

You have someone to see at home.

It's great you'll never be alone.

With two you are able to share.

It's great to know someone cares.

There is life when you have a friend.

Someone you love and always depend.



Sunday, March 14, 2021

SHE'S AN ANGEL



 

Just call her an angel, I know she is.

She took care of me, it's moments like this.

Her precious smile that lights the way.

She brightens my life each and every day.

Just call her a friend and watch and see.

She shared her food and help anyone in need.

There is no other who was kinder and sweeter.

Who has a big heart and is a friendly greeter.

Just call her a neighbor who knocks on your door.

Shares her homemade cooking and much more.

Her body was weak but her will was much stronger.

She was an amazing lady who's not with us any longer.

Just call her a God's child who loved Jesus every day.

She was sweet and friendly, her kindness was on display.

We can make a difference and help one another.

She's a perfect example on how to help each other.





Monday, March 8, 2021

LONELINESS

 

I don't want to be alone, it's killing me.

The silence surrounds everything I see.

No one to talk with or even to say Hi.

No one worries if I live or die.

My heart does ache, waiting to love.

To know someone they're thinking of.

No knock on the door or phone to ring.

No one who wants to hear me sing.

No one to share or even to care.

No one around who wants to be there.

No one to give a hug or wipe a tear.

To cuddle up close and stay near.

No one to say the words I love you.

Or to hear someone say I love you too.

This loneliness is all I have for companionship.

But you can't count on it for a relationship.





Saturday, March 6, 2021

IT'S ABOUT TIME

 


I rounded them up, hatred, greedy,

jealously, revenge and fear.

Bring also prejudice, resentment,

selfish, malice and bitterness here.

SHOW THEM ALL THE DOOR!

I don't need them anymore.


              CHOOSE ONLY ONE!
              DISCARD THE REST.


I CLEANED OUT MY HEAD.
SO MUCH GARBAGE I HAD.
THAT WAS A LOAD I GOT RID OF.
I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER!
IT'S EASY TO SMILE.







Tuesday, March 2, 2021

DOWN MEMORY LANE

 


I call out your name when I walk inside the door.

I never hear your voice, I don't hear it anymore.

It's six years I loved you and I love you still

My heart is empty, no one else can fill.

I take another walk, down memory lane.

You may be gone, but those times will remain..

All the errands and tasks, I had the pleasure to do.

I cherished all those times, I did it for you.

Every moment we shared, it's memories we made.

I still recall those times, they will never fade;

I have all the pictures, it's still in a frame.

I shared it to others, but it's not the same.

Photos is my keepsake, all her memories too.

It's hard to move on, when I still miss you.

So I'm still mourning, it's something I can't hide.

It's still haunting me, the pain you had inside.



Wednesday, February 24, 2021

MY DEAR FRIEND

 


I heard her voice yesterday on a recording again.

The sweet voice that came from my dear friend.

I stare at her photo and wonder why did it end?

I could only imagine what might have been.

My tears are words my heart can't express.

She was tormented and suffered in duress.

A sweet caring person with a big heart.

She had a pain that tore her apart.

I'm filled with anguish that I can't rid of.

My life is shattered I lost the one I loved.

My dear friend is gone after all those years.

I'm left with a photo and a pool of tears.



 

Wednesday, February 17, 2021

I CAN LIVE AGAIN

 


I watched her suffer and no family came here.
No one really cared, they didn't shed a tear.
So many sleepless nights and tears that I cried.
I seen how cruel evil is and wished that I died.
Yesterday is gone, it's a closed door.
I don't have to live there anymore.
It's time to say goodbye to where I've been.
I have another day, I can live again.
Silence in the room speak volumes to my heart.
It has a grip on me and I'm left torn apart.
Sorrow pierces my heart and fills my mind.
It's hard to let go and leave my past behind.
Yesterday is gone, it's a closed door.
I don't have to live there anymore.
It's time to say goodbye to where I've been.
I have another day, I can live again.



Wednesday, February 10, 2021

SERVE YOU

 

What am I going to do, where do I go?
When will you answer me, I want to know.
I want to do your will and do it your way.
I'm waiting patiently and hope it's today.
I don't want to be a spectator, not even a doormat.
I'm looking for a purpose and not only that.
I want to serve you Jesus and help others too.
Find my best friend and live my life for you.
I don't want to be a dreamer, not even to look back.
I'm looking to the future and always giveback.
I want to do my best, in everything I do.
I promise to be faithful and always honor you. 




Friday, February 5, 2021

BALLAD OF CJ JOYNER

 


She's a sweet, charming lady,

with a big heart inside.

She's always looking pretty,

and she's a friend of mine.

You can see it in her smile,

and the words she would say.

You will know it by her kindness,

that she shows it every day.

You can feel it in your heart,

in the joy she would bring.

She welcomes me with love,

my heart wants to sing.

You can see she really cares,

in everything she would do.

She always took the time,

to help me through.

You can see she is friendly,

ready to help me again.

The message is quite clear,

that she is my friend. 



Saturday, January 30, 2021

WOULD YOU CALL

 


If I promised you, I wouldn't scare you

with my looks, would you call?

If I said, I was bald and skinny

and not really tall.

If I told you, I was poor but

was friendly and kind, would you call?

If I promised you I will help you

anytime at all.

If I said, I was shy and didn't

drink or smoke, would you call?

If I told you I would take you

to a shopping mall.

If I said I was a Christian and I wouldn't

go to a bar, would you call?

If I promised you, I would treat you nice

and not swear at all.

If you said yes to any of the above,

all you have to do is call.


 

Friday, January 22, 2021

BROKEN DREAMS

I've reached rock bottom and not only that.
I have no friends, I'm just a doormat.
I see the evil get the upper hand.
I see the suffering, I don't understand.
I dream we help out and love everyone.
My dream is shattered, what can be done?
I reach out to seek another friend.
When no one comes, life seems to end.
I'm hanging on to the end of my rope.
I cry out to Jesus who is my hope.
I call out to my savior in this plea.
I need you, Jesus. Please help me.