There and then,
I lived a life of shame.
All those years looking,
for fortune and fame.
My mind was filled,
with so much pride.
Nothing good to show,
only the hate inside.
Here and now,
I look back and I cry.
I am a sinner,
what good am I?
I consider my life,
worth nothing to me.
I ask God of grace,
to show me mercy.
Lord Jesus forgive me,
for all my sins.
Create a new heart,
let my new life begin.
I'll serve you Lord,
and give you all the glory.
I'll spread the good news,
and share my story.
Whenever you are down and feeling really sad.
Even when you're ill and your day is going bad.
Anytime you worry or have some fear.
Maybe you feel alone and long for someone near.
Remember that God is there beside you.
He's always there to help you through.
That's a promise he will never forsake.
Just remember to keep the faith.
Whenever there is trouble or any type of pain.
Even when you struggle and your effort seems in vain.
Anytime there is a burden or even a broken heart.
Maybe there is some grief and you're torn apart.
Remember that God is there beside you.
He's always there to help you through.
That's a promise he will never forsake.
Just remember to keep the faith.
There may come a time when something goes wrong.
It seems to linger on and your life seems gone.
Whenever that happens and you're wondering what to do.
You got to believe in God and know he'll help you too.
Remember that God is there beside you.
He's always there to help you through.
That's a promise he will never forsake.
Just remember to keep the faith.
I'm standing at the corner of Love Street.
I'm searching for someone I can meet.
I'm embarking on this important journey.
To give my heart to one who is worthy.
So I picked LOVE STREET, it's a great site.
They clearly show my future looks bright.
I like those odds, without a roll of dice.
So it won't be hard to see who is nice.
I look at the profiles and check every view.
I look for matches and there's very few.
I scroll up and down and then I see you.
We are a match, can this be true?
I'm filled with emotions, do you feel it too.
Now it's your turn, what will you do?
The message is clear, I need to know.
Will you say yes or will you say no?
When CJ passed away, part of me died.
I can't stop grieving, even though I tried.
I spent six years, with my best friend.
I had no life before and none since then.
She cared for me, I could really see.
She showed the love, she had for me.
I think of her and I start to weep.
I have only memories, I can keep.
She was an angel, bless her heart.
Every day I miss my sweetheart.
Now she is happy, since God called her home.
Welcome to Heaven, CJ, it's where you belong.
It's etched in my heart and soul that I want to give.
But when my friend dies, there's no reason to live.
I gave my heart I never expected it back.
But God took her life, I know what I lack.
Life was never meant to live on your own.
Nor sitting on the couch with your phone.
When emptiness comes, it's like a balloon pop.
Depression seeps in, it's something you can't stop.
THIS HEART OF MINE NEEDS TO FIND.
A FRIEND WHO IS CHEERFUL AND KIND.
SOMEONE WHO LOVES TO SHARE AND CARE
SOMEONE WHO WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.
I hate every moment, nothing to look forward too.
Just an empty apartment, no one is missing you.
The phone remains silent, it seldom rings.
When I hear it, wrong number it brings.
Loneliness surrounds me, the pain is real.
I lost my best friend, that's what I feel.
This vacant space lingers, it still lies inside.
Where my lonely heart is there to hide.
THIS HEART OF MINE NEEDS TO FIND.
A FRIEND WHO IS CHEERFUL AND KIND.
SOMEONE WHO LOVES TO SHARE AND CARE.
SOMEONE WHO WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.
If I had one more moment, to see your face.
I'd run to you, and give you a warm embrace.
If I had one more day, that I could see you.
I'd take you to a restaurant, and dine for two.
If I had one more occasion, we could celebrate.
It would be your birthday, I know it would be great.
If I had one more time, to say a word or two.
I'd say Bless Your Heart, and I Love You too.
If we had one more meal, we'd cook together.
We would thank God, for the best times ever.
If I had one more visit, I'd sing you a song.
I would enjoy your company all day long.
If I had only one wish, you would be with me.
I'd welcome you home, and make your special tea.
If I could pick just one, to be our favorite holiday.
We'd prepare a special meal, on Thanksgiving Day.
If I had one more text, that I could send.
I would say, Thanks For Being My Friend.
They're so many things, I would want to say.
God surely blessed me, when you came my way.
On July 23, 2014,
it was God's plan.
For a lovely lady,
meet this lonely man.
I remember that moment,
it's etched in my mind.
When I met her,
she was friendly and kind.
I take a moment,
I can also see.
Those precious memories,
she spent with me.
I saw our love,
how much it's grown.
We lived in a place,
we called our home.
I take a moment,
I look back again.
I heard her say,
you're my best friend.
It was six years,
nothing like this before.
And it all began,
with a knock on my door.
I am a complete mess!
I feel like trash much less.
I wonder what I can do.
When I'm hurting too.
Where do I go from here?
How do I stop this fear?
I fell and got back up again.
But I have no best friend.
With no purpose and no car.
I can't see how I got this far.
There's no reason to look back.
But I can see clearly what I lack.
If I knew back then, what I know now.
I can do more, so I make this vow.
I focus on Jesus and always think of.
Everything I do, I do with LOVE!
I have no purpose, not even a plan.
No dream or vision for this lonely man.
The evil one comes, it torments me every day.
I'm overwhelmed by grief, no help is on the way.
LORD IS IT TIME,
TO CALL ME HOME.
IN HEAVEN WITH YOU,
WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.
WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST,
NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.
IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER,
LORD IS IT TIME?
Darkness surrounds me, silence fills my ears.
Misery clouds over me, my eyes are filled with tears.
Lost my dear friend, it breaks my heart.
Loneliness consumes me, it tears me apart.
LORD IS IT TIME,
TO CALL ME HOME.
IN HEAVEN WITH YOU,
WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.
WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST,
NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.
IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER,
LORD IS IT TIME?
False accusations keep me in constant fear.
My pillow covers my face, not my own tears.
Phone seldom rings, no knock on my door.
I can't find a reason to live any more.
LORD, IS IT TIME,
TO CALL ME HOME.
IN HEAVEN WITH YOU,
WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.
WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST,
NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.
IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER,
LORD IS IT TIME?
I hate this world with the filth and mess.
I can't stop this anxiety or even my stress.
I begin to wonder how long will this curse last.
I can't forgive myself what happened in the past.
LORD IS IT TIME,
TO CALL ME HOME.
IN HEAVEN WITH YOU,
WHERE I WON'T BE ALONE.
WHERE LOVE AND PEACE EXIST,
NO MORE TEARS TO CRY.
IN YOUR PRESENCE FOREVER,
LORD IS IT TIME?
Tears flow down my face,
when I write this poem to you.
My heart longs for your presence,
my eyes misses your smile too.
Your words play over and over,
and your image appears again.
My ears listen to your voice,
when you say I was your friend.
Our days went to months,
and lasted for six years.
Those great times are gone,
and I'm left with only tears.
No more Bless Your Heart,
and no more I Love You.
No prayers before a meal,
no more dining for two.
Your Polish poet misses you,
my life will never be the same,
I'll never forget about you,
nor the day you came.
I can never say goodbye,
and let our memories fade away.
I look back at those times
and wish you were here today .
